****SIGH****
These days I'm feeling pulled in 10 different directions and there is not a lot of time or ambition to do what I would like or need to do. I'm feeling trapped, smothered, stuck! I want to kick of my shoes, run barefoot in the grass and have days of time to do complete nothingness. But with that said, it would drive me crazy too with no real goal.
There are times that I could just say "Screw it - look out world here I come!" These are the days I regret settling down way to early and not traveling the globe or spending more time figuring out who Penny was. Don't get me wrong, I love Hal but days like today just fuck me up. I don't need someone elses freaking attitude and can't say diddly because then it's just being a nag. "Well listen and hear what is being said the first time and it wouldn't have to be repeated!"
Gibson is growing way to fast and has now decided that waking up at 5:00 a.m. to snuggle with us is the bomb. It was not appreciated this morning but had to laugh at him though for his determination. When he realized he was not going to get to sleep in bed with us he beelined it for underneath the bed but he's grown quite a bit and doesn't fit so easily under. I looked down and saw his two little back legs sticking out from underneath but he though that all his parts were tucked in nice and tight, lol. Pulled him out and he was snapping like a baby alligator but begrudgingly went back into his crate.
Hormones are going out of whack again and this is also causing moodiness on my part *jeez ya think!* Gibson and I try to walk every night and will need to add at least one additional one in the morning to tucker him out a bit before being crated during the day.
Off to soak this bitchy broad in a bubble bath!
2 comments:
Penny Penny, I can sort of feel the way you are, and its called menoopause.. for me anyways, geez going to be a bad summer with the flashes.. and with this heat yuck.. I've been snappy at Mike.. am trying not to be with my girls but they pick up on stuff and say I am for which I say Sorry.. but one day girls you will understand how I feel.. I feel I haven't had much alone time this summer.. but am so looking forward to taking off for a ride with Mike just the two of us on Sunday not sure how he is going to be setting up a tent in the rain lol. I will take pics hehe.. Anyways, Penny hope your days get better. Oh and mine too... Sue
Ah Penny, sorry you are feeling so crappy right now hope you are back to your smiling self soon, I would say becareful what you wish for I too have often wished to be able to stay home with nothing to do and I jinxed myself and am suffering with a bad back was ordered by the doctor a couple weeks age to get on my back and do nothing else unless I had to go to the bathroom hmmm well that fricken sucks lol I have now decided that I no longer wish for this although luckily I can knit laying down thank goodness or I may have gone crazy....well crazier. you can always come to the no boy zone for a glass of wine or a cup of tea anytime just have to call.
Take care
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